Thursday, October 8, 2009

Dumb Ass Hole

yea...
i'm a super dumb ass hole
i cant hold my feeling
and i text him
ask him something silly

and what i get
is a word
HURT

i think what he said last time
is a big lie
and i should have forget him
let him get out from my mind

i'm a dumb ass hole

Sunday, October 4, 2009

Festival

There are a lot of chinese festival in a year
And everyone seems enjoy to celebrate it

Today is MoonCake Festival or ppl called Mid Autumn Festival
Went to my friend BBQ party
then go back home before 12am

When I back home
I start asking myself
why we celebrate these festivals?

I'm pretty sure
Chinese always take "Union" as a very important things
but I can see
This Union always happened for Friends Reunion
not Family
Today i quite wish to celebrate with my family member
but my parents and elder sis went to wedding dinner
my 2nd sister went to somebody party
my 2nd bro.. i dunno where is him cause i dun see him since i back from college
n myself went to fren's party

why not a family reunion but a fren reunion?
have ppl misunderstand what a festival purpose?
i can understand some ppl cant celebrate with family because of certain reason
but why my 2nd bro n 2nd sis cant celebrate wif me?

pathetic night..

Friday, September 25, 2009

Bad Month

recently many bad things happened to me
1st, both of them suddenly get away from me
2nd, my beloved 2nd bro getting more sick (christian slave)
3rd recently i've being conned for rm700
4th mum get rob
5th i didnt manage to do my revision

why is this happening to me??
i'm so so so sad
nobody there for me anymore
i dunno who to share my things anymore
i lost my direction

Wednesday, September 9, 2009

Recycle

Paper can be recycled
Does my life have being recycled now?
Why is the same thing happened again?

I'm afraid to lose a friend like them
yet
I have no choice and don't know what should I do
to avoid the same ending

I am really
out of my hand
out of my mind
nothing just go right

I understand their feel
therefore
I should be more understanding
and start to adapt myself
though I am suffering as what they suffer now

Monday, July 6, 2009

Weird Dream

yesterday is my 1st day for the 3rd semester.
that night so difficult for me 2 fall sleep.. having insomnia..

it's weird this morning i find out i have two dream
one is him..
i saw him, n in d dream, i try to take my guts to discuss our problem, but he dun1 continue wif d topic.. make me so sad.. but i'm happy coz i finally can see him(in d dream)...i think we have been few months didnt meet before..

the second dream more weird..
unexpected.. i dream him.. seeing him quarrel wif his gf.. n then recover back..

it's really weird... weird dream..

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

My Holiday

actually i'm quite lazy to write blog again, but since very sien now, so decide to post something up

after exam, my holiday begin! first we go sing k in sunway wif my coursemate. then go lang tengah trip with my secondary friends.(it's really amazing trip. LOVE IT!) then went to Pahang(tasik bera, deer land, elephant farm,kuantan) and Melaka jalan jalan with my god mum, tenji buffet. then trying to mix well with all my secondary friends by going to lots of small places.

at lang tengah
at ara damansara (Full House)Tasik Bera

i have also spend alot money including lang tengah trip(rm400++),shopping(rm400+), laptop(rm2000+++) and others(rm150+).. duh.. all also output.. no input
those trips is really fun and happy though..

but.. this holiday, whenevr i boring, i start to become stupid again.. recall something that i shouldn't think about it. how stupid am i, always hoping for something that will never come true, i even dream about it.... how disappointed am i when i wake up n everything disappear...

when i will really forget? it's not i cannot forget it. maybe, i'm just too stuborn to let it go...
i'm hopeless..

Friday, May 8, 2009

Wesak Parade

today there's a wesak parade at kajang town.

morning, wake up at 11am, then watch drama.. our maid gone back to her country.. now our house dun hav maid anymore, i guess i have to help my mum more in housework

afternoon hav lunch with sis's fren. chit chat. actually plan to sing k wif them, but some of them suddenly ffk, any then left 3 ppl including me, then we apporach to the sing k shop, but they say full, only left medium room, quite expensive, we decide go home. then i continue my drama

i told d guy i have date wif some1. he seems hurt, but he's lucky, coz he didnt hurt as deep as me last time. hopefully we still can b fren. aih.. i'm really stupid, i thought he treat every fren aso tat good, but the fact is, he treat me good because he 1 2 court me.

i guess in adult world, making a close guy fren is really difficult.. all about dating.. sien..

aih.. 2day heart heavier again. coz i dunno whether i want to do that. i feel very much to do it, but i dunno what is the hou guo. i scare i cant bare it... aih...

Thursday, May 7, 2009

Heavy Heart

my heart is getting heavier day by day..
i dunno what am i doing..
i'm probably lost all my way..
now i just know that i'm in a half-conscious status...
i know i did something wrong
and i dunno how am i gonna fix it

maybe this is the faith
i'm gonna continue this wrong way
there's no turning back anymore

everyday i just hope
miracle will happened
but i know
it wont happened
still
hoping..


suffering the pain alone
and pretending happy
is my motto now

i'm gonna live unconsciously now
sorry to all my friends if i indirectly hurt u all
hope you all will forgive me
coz now
i got lost control with myself

Wednesday, May 6, 2009

Insomnia Night at Hostel

today (5 may 2009) is my last paper for my second semester. after exam finish, i drive my coursemate (li hong, sook lin, hui ying, wan ting) to sunway. we go sing k and then watch movie. very tiring because i abit no mood. just got the news that i cant stay in college for the next semester... something frustraing me and my mind was exhausted.. whole day was forcing myself to enjoy.. aih.. sigh.. really upset

then my roommate seems so desperately 1 2 go outing tml. aih.. i understand i'm a big water fish to let them get me to fetch them jalan sini and sana.. aih.. i really wish to reject them, i dun1 to spoilt their mood. so forcing myself to accept whatever they want from me

tml morning gonna send this laptop to low yat fix it. sad.. 2 weeks times lost my laptop.. T_T somemore gonna force myself to go outing wif my roommate in that kind of mood. really very sad...

tonight i got insomnia.. dunno is because the weather very hot, or i'm over exhausted or too worried for tml schedule.. or something bothering me.. i know that most probably is that thing bothering me, but i dun dare to say it out to anyone. it always frustrating my mind and i really endure it all the time... whever i want to sleep, i will think of that thing. but tonight i cant stop my mind to think of it again. i really dun hav d guts to tell anyone. i know i shouldnt say it out. it's a forbidden. i... really wish i can tell somebody so that i wont be that suffer. but the fact tellng me that i'm gonna keep the secret till i die.

god.. i'm really suffering everynight.. feel like wanted to cry, but dunno what i'm crying for.. i dun hav d guts to cry..

Sunday, May 3, 2009

Labour Day

1st of May is labour day! early in the morning, my niece and nephew came in my room n wake me up. then they start wear their new nike shoes and run here and there. feel like they so happy with the new shoes. haha..
Joey and Jonathan- wearing the shoes playing colour pencilJonathan with the colour pencil. promoting Nike shoes?haha.. they are soooo adorable for me!!!

then we went to eat Dim Sum for our breakfast. My bro-in-law drive his family car to fetch mum, sis, me, and that 2 little kidsmy niece n nephew). haha... cant stop paying attention to Jonathan because he is so cute and funny all the time!
haha.. he always wanted to feed himself and he don't like being feeded
so get back to home, thought of wanted to start study my next paper Digital System, but suddeny elder sis suggest to go swimming at Mewah Club. so, i decided to follow them, and cindy and mum follow us too. haha..
Changing their swimming clothes

so we change our clothes and start go in the water to play. haha.. that Jonathan always love to play water! but his sister Joey is the opposite. She very scare get drown, though she can stand up on the pool, yet she want people to hold her hand.gosh.. the water level only reach her breast while her brother reach the neck level. that Jonathan yet wanted toplay so desperately! haha..Jonathan playing the ball wif his parents..Jonathan and me~~Joey like to play with her cow cow and duck duck(brought from home)ask her to kick water.. end up like tat kick..

after accompanying them to play awhile, then i swim myself at the adult side. while swimming, i feel so happy because we actually having a family reunion here, but without my 2nd bro and my dad. i dont know where did my dad went to, but my 2nd bro went to his church badminton match.after swimming, we took our lunch at somewhere then balik rumah looo~~
nice pictureafter swimming, they play in the playground.haha.. beh ta han me.. so big liao still play this


suddenly feel my bro start changing like my dad now. nowadays, he always hang out with his church friend. he is changing slowly and slowly and slowly.. T_T

Nike warehouse sales!!

30 Apr 2009 is the first day of Nike warehouse sales. Actually I didnt plan to go, but that day after my exam, sis call me up. she said that mum and her will come and fetch me, then we go to Dynasty Hotel to have our lunch, the go home.

as usual, after eating at Dynasty hotel, then we plan to go home. Don't know what make us suddenly feeling want to go the Nike warehouse. we asked mum whether know the way. mum say yes, but end up we got the wrong way. =.=

but sis and me feel so much to go there, so we asked somebody in the petrol station and my sis's fren. finally, we got our way to the Queen's Park and Peel Road.

firstly, we thought it will be very cheap, who know it's only slightly cheaper than the retail shop. Still we manage to bought lots of stuff such! i wanted to buy a nike shoes. i remember i saw the price of the shoes is rm300+ in retail shop, and now they only sell rm249! i wanted to buy it, unfortunately, they don't have my size.. so sad..

then we look for other stuff like jacket, shirt, kids shoes , sock.. and etc..luckily the time we went there does not have much people. won't be very hot, no long queue. everything just fine!
Our treasure from the nike warehouse. the two kids shoes is cute!

after haunting 1 or 2 hours there, we manage to bought a jacket, 2 pair of kid's shoes( 1 for my niece and 1 for my nephew), a spaghetti, and 3 socks. not bad huh! haha..

after arriving home, i text my brother to go for badminton game. then i saw my parcel have arrived. oh yea.. that's my birthday gift from my sis - a pair of converse shoes. looks like a school shoes, but heard my fren promote it's quite good quality, so i wanted to buy a pair and try it.

My new converse shoes

that night play with his church friend. feel not satisfied because my sport shoes already spoilt, and i can't really perform my max. moreover keep use those stupid shttle cocks to play.. sien!

My New Blog is BORNED!!

Finally i have thought another title for my new blog, that is

MY SWEET AND SOUR


every single taste of my life will be written in here.

i will not advertise this blog because i don't really want much people to know unless you have the interest to find out everything about me.

cheers~